He’s perfect, in every way possible. I never thought I could love one person so much! I never thought I would be so lucky. He takes my breath away. Looking in his eyes I know that we will be together for the rest of our lives.

Thinking about the first night we spent together, before we even started going out… It was absolutely PERFECT. I wouldn’t change that night for anything in the world. He invited me over to his house. He sent me a text that afternoon. April 6th 2011 at 4:09pm saying “Hey, I can’t wait to see you tonight!” I couldn’t wait either and I just wanted it to be 8:00 already! Time was moving so SLOW! But finally is was time for me to go! I heard him driving before I even saw him. Since that mustang is so loud you can hear it from a mile away. I was smiling so much when he picked me up. He told me I looked “cute.”  He gave me butterflies ALL NIGHT LONG. I just wanted to be his finally. If you didn’t know.. We weren’t going out yet and I have been waiting patiently. I wanted tonight to be the night… A few hours past and still nothing, but A LOT of flirting. So it was a good sign. Then around midnight he asked me if I wanted to go outside with him so we could talk. We were in the basement at first, he had a lot of friends over and they were all drinking. It was cute how he asked, he is so shy! He sent me a text saying “Go outside with me, please?” Of course I said yes. I was dying to know what he wanted to talk about. So we went outside, sat on the hood of the oh so wonderful mustang. It was the perfect setting for being outside looking up at the stars. The sky was clear! I could see every star in the sky. BEAUTIFUL!! He was looking at me dead in the eyes, I couldn’t turn away…. and the butterflies came back! :) He finally asked, after waiting for so long…. “Will you want to go out with me?” <—- he was a little drunk. Of course I said yes! I was the happiest girl in the world. The start of the rest of my life, I didn’t know that then. But now I do.

I should have kissed him when he asked me. That should have been our first kiss, instead I just gave him a hug.. <—i’m prude. Not anymore though ;) Now I can’t keep my hands off him. Our first kiss was actually after a beautiful night at capital plaza down in albany! I was AMAZING there. My first time going there. He tried all night to kiss me. Of course I still didn’t kiss him. I was playing hard to get. We went with a bunch of our friends and all the couples split up. I was stuck with Phil.. being shy and nervous. I wanted to kiss him but I was scared so on our way home, i went in for the kill. Went in to kiss him, still nervous as hell but i did it. AND IT WAS PERFECT. Every first kiss I’ve had with a guy always turned out dumb and at the wrong time. This was the perfect time and the perfect place.

I can’t get enough of that boy! I love thinking about the start of it all. I wouldn’t change any of it. He’s my everything! <3 I look forward to waking up in the morning hearing his voice, kissing his lips, holding him close to me. It just all feels right and it wouldn’t feel the same with anyone else but him. I can’t wait to marry this boy! I can’t wait to have his baby boy. He wants a boy. :) We are going to be the most amazing married couple with the most adorable child. I can hardly wait.

doesn’t even matter anymore now that I have Phil. My life is perfect in every possible way and it’s going to stay that way! I’m gonna marry that man. <3 And I can hardly wait.

i woke up this morning to a soft kiss from my love! :) he brought me the newspaper and showed me the help wanted section…. since i’m still looking for a fucking job. he found the perfect job for me! it’s a child care center in rotterdam and they are looking for summer hours. i gave her a call and she is interested in meeting me! i really hope i get this job so phil doesn’t have to support me anymore. also looking forward to taking my five hour course next weekend so i can get my license and start carting phil around everywhere instead of him doing it. kinda looking forward to that! :)

my high school career is coming to and end. i keep thinking back to all the things that i have gone through in my 4 years of high school. when i was a freshman i was so freaking lost. i didn’t think i would make it. the seniors were assholes, but now.. I’m the senior. I’m the one the freshman are thinking is an asshole. :) everything is coming so fast now. i only have about 40 more days of school until i move on with my life, until graduation. i have made some really great friends and I’ve lost some who i will never ever forget. I met the guy of my dreams who I’m going to marry June 23rd, 2013. SAVE THE DATE! :) I am just growing up so fucking fast and I’m wicked excited.